CAN NOT SLEEP TIME

ALREADY, THIS POST IS GOING TO SUCK, HARDCORE.

Why is it that it is almost 2am and I am still awake?  Is there someone out there that is also having this problem with the feeling of INSOMNIA TIME?  Maybe, but probably not.  It's bullshit when you have to wake up to go back to WORK TIME, start your first day ON TIME, back at an old job that you love so dearly, when the apartment that you currently share with two other people have friends over from out of state and they do not warn you of it until, oh you open up the door and then continue to blast some obnoxious British MTV show that is just a knock off Jersey Shore.  Nice third person, run on sentence if I do say so myself.

Finding myself stuck in this dilemma where I have horrible credit because of my nice medical history and lies told by some that find it cute to beat around the bush.  Here I am starting over once again.  AT TIMES more so recently, I feel as though my pretend house burnt down to a crisp and here I am left with nothing, but a suitcase, a computer, a phone, a sleeping bag, my car, and a pile full of bills that insurance money will not pay for because there is no insurance money because the house is a metaphor for my self ego and esteem constantly being stripped and washed down the drain.  Hey at least in the gutter and in the sewer are some rats and turtles to chill with.

Spent today at an arcade with bestie.  We beat The Simpson game.  I went and played every shooting game possible while he beat Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, SkeeBall and fed me Tootsie Rolls while killing the crap out of zombies on roller-coasters and crazy other carnival weirdos.  Then we went to Ci-Ci's pizza just to find out that there was a Simpson game there too because apparently he has been looking for that game for quite awhile and we found two in one day except the one at the arcade was so cheap.  Guess the fascination is to that of me with Ms. Pacman or any Pacman.  Sue, Blinky, Pinky, Inky and Clyde?  Reminds me of the Johnny Cash song (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Boy_Named_Sue)  Which we heard on the way to the arcade.  Then a cover of Ring of Fire came on, which not to much of a fan of.  Too scary of a subject to be played out by any other singer other than the man himself.  Coincidence?  Maybe.  It was great.  Ahh how I love being a cheap date.  Cost $8.50 for the both of us, but we got back a 5 dollar bag of nickles in return, hence the CANDY TIME.

Speaking of a CHEAP TIME.  Found out that it costs $15 to apply for Section 8 online.  There must be someway to apply for it in person for free.  Will find out soon hopefully when meeting with a social security agent about disability and such.  My mind sometimes overwhelms me with bills and I wonder how my mother did and still does mange with such crazy nonsense and I am only one person imagine 7 TIMES.  That's insane, if you ask me.  She does it though and with the help of my father too.  Unfortunately I was pretty much cut off at 18 besides them paying for car insurance for the past 10 years and cell phone for the past 6 years.  Although that doesn't come cheap.

Early in May my mother decided it WAS TIME to press charges against me for kicking and elbowing two holes in the wall of the room I was staying in at their house.  Looking back it was probably sometime in the last week of April.  The funny thing is is that I called the cops on myself and they handcuffed me and sent me too a behavioral health unit for the SECOND TIME in two months. That's my family's resolution on dealing with me and their own problems.  Ship me off somewhere else and for what reason?  Finally caved, talked with mother and asked her to drop the charges.  She had no idea that I had a court date and fine.  Or maybe she did, but just wanted to play dumb to the fact that there was no way that I was going to go back to that state.

Well probably should try and get some sleep, although for some reason I feel as though MY TIME says it's close to oh 9 something in the morning.  Great.  It's going to be a nice opposite summer for me.  At least I'll be working at NIGHT TIME with some cool friends.  Driving up and down the mountain everyday still excites me and have that to look forward to, getting out of the city.  Much more of a resort, relaxation, and PEACE TIME kind of a girl.  Well goodnight for now?